We don’t ever arrive at a final destination and pitch our tent for life. We just make our way through this world moving from stepping stone to stepping stone. As we move along, we eventually tumble into the space between each stone until we work our way out onto the next solid rock. This space in between each stone is where we spend time working and moving a few steps forward, a step or two back, up, down or we just remain stuck. The “in between” space is where we process what’s going on in this section of our lives by waiting and practicing all we need to do to grow stronger and hold on until we’re able to move to that next space that feels a bit more solid, sturdy and steadfast. All this rummaging through, examination and the development of new skills and practices is not without some sweat, frustration, hurt and tears. The “in between” space can feel unbalanced, messy, dull or even feel like sinking quick sand but acts as a mini or major springboard to get us out and eventually on to some semblance of solid ground. We either choose to work hard to get to the next stone or stay where we are and keep holding on until something inside us says it’s time to try something new. At some point, if our awareness and courage are intact, we just know we need to get to a place different from where we are now, because where we are, isn’t working or just doesn’t feel right for us anymore.
The desire to move to a new place is in us from the start or we’d never learn to pull ourselves up as babies and walk. After all the growth brought on by our fitful attempts to get it right in the “in between”, we need that next stepping stone to help us slow down our breathing and our minds long enough to see how much we’ve grown and dream about what could be next now that we can walk. We need this reprieve to reflect on how far we’ve come and look at the wisdom we’ve gathered along the way from our time spent in the process of living this life in the “in between” space. We need to feel the contentment of what we’ve accomplished and feel gratitude for those who helped us to hold on when we felt lost and unstable while standing on a pile of shifting sand.
I picked up a cracked robin’s egg on my walk this morning. The beautiful God-made color of that egg and the mixture of strength (after all it did fall from a nest high up in a tree!), fragility and the messy remnants of what it once held got me thinking about the importance of the “in between” space. Life grew in that gorgeous, robin’s-egg-blue space and it was beautiful, fragile, strong and messy. Life sat in an egg, high in a nest, tended, growing and semi-safe waiting until it got too bored and too big for its container. Life didn’t stay constricted in that “in between” space until it could no longer move at all and eventually wither away. It made the decision to bust out and take a chance on that next stepping stone. That mixture of miracle, guck, growth and time worked its magic to form a new, tiny creature that emerged with unsteady wings and not quite ready to fly. It was tender, needed to practice new skills, wait, take chances and required care from others (momma bird, trees, nest, sunlight, worms!). It’s how that bird grew and got stronger so it could get to a safer place in the air and just soar for a bit and take it all in until the next “in between” comes along. I know predators abound and take advantage of the innocent and vulnerable states found in the “in between”. But never trying to make it through this space and move forward will get us and birds nowhere. Never trying is an ending in and of itself.
Broken shells tumble to the ground while others pieces remain in our nests as reminders that we can grow and become bigger, stronger and more capable than what we could have imagined. We can bust out of what contains us, work through the process of growth and move on to that next stone. Here we feel confident because of what we’ve done and soar the sky contently, gratefully and joyously. We rest and recover on this stone too because we’ve learned our time of change will come along again and again making recovery essential. Arrival is never about pitching your tent for long but all about looking to the horizon for that next place you may land and being present- in all spaces- with the messy miracle of you along the way.